No one understands me

I hate when I'm not taken seriously, either because of my age, or because normally I act silly and boisterous. Because that's how I am on the outside, no one ever thinks I'm capable of being serious, deep or having provoking thoughts or ever being near to thinking like an intellectual. This annoys me to no bounds, because all the times when I'm alone, I am like that, and to be told or scoffed at when showing this side in public, it's extremely aggravating. I hate it. Whatever I am, or whatever I show is only a side of the story, and maybe if you heard all of it, you might actually understand it.

Musings

I have so much on my mind, so much I'm feeling, but when it comes to writing it all down; my mind goes blank. I feel too much of it all, and I don't think I'll ever be like Anne Frank, who had the particular skill of articulate skill of the telling of her emotions.
I have to say, two years ago, I tried reading Diary of Anne Frank more than three or four times, now I can't stop. It truly is exquisite! (I ship Petel [van Daan] and Anne so hard omfg!)
Apart from that, I have so many books that have been set out for me for the holidays, which is absolutely amazing, and my brother is here for me to annoy :)
But I can't help feeling, even though all these things will be happening, I won't enjoy the summer because I have no friends and I never go out with anyone, and I'll stay the whole day in my house interneting and feeling useless and my parents telling me I am for having such a rubbish life; but when I want to go out like three times in a week, my mom tells me off for going out 'too much', even though I hardly have a social life, and says when she was that age, she didn't go out as much as I did.
I wander of the future, and if leaving home will be all I make it out to be, because I envision it as the point in my life where freedom begins and everything I've wanted to do, be and learn, will happen and I really shall be devastated if that isn't the case.

All for now.

Rant

I hate it when I tweet some serious shit about myself, and then people reply trying to correct me, or when people try to restrain me from doing shit I want to, like seriously respect me and let me be.

Today was the worst experience ever, I was completely man-handled, I don't think they knew what they were doing, I don't think that when Seun was holding me that tightly that I am weak, and that it hurt a lot, and they were doing what society did to me this time last year [when it was at its strongest] restraining me from being me. I can't have my friend, my fucking friend, acting like my bloody brother for God's sake!! 
I don't want to see ANY of them for so long.
I feel helpless and useless.
This is mental rape.
I am dead.
I feel my ghost come back.
Hello relapse.

Kate & Leo

So I watched Revolution Road recently and I asdfkajdsfljwoeriwnlfkew I'm bloody speechless

I watched it and it was ridiculously amazing. I mean first of all, the theme of the story relates to completely what I am going through now as a person and the country I am living in. The acting was adlfjasdfpasiodfujaowierjwoe as expected. And every was, ah ah ah!!

Queen Cyrus

I loveee Miley Cyrus, and let's face it, there is no celebrity that has had no albums or movies being released recently, but still gets as heavily photographed or paparazzed as Miley. This year has been a time for her to reap what she sowed, connect with her family and be with her boyfriend. And through that she's still getting photographed, invited to award shows and doing charity.


Yes the teens that have been raving are Jelena and Selena Gomez but when next year hits, and she has her four fucking movies lined up, and probably an album and all those fake ass pussies coming back and being like I always loved Miley and bull, I'll just be sitting feeling so fly and I'll be like, IN YOUR FACE MOTHERFUCKERS.


Miley is coming back, she is Queen isn't she? She was made for the performing arts, and when she does return, she'll do it big. Better be prepared.

Highs and lows of this month

Well the lows were of me not being serious in some subjects and I have this extremely bad fear that I would get really bad in lots of my subjects.

But there have been many highs (as an optimist I like to look on the bright side of things), I went on a geography school trip and it was awesome, I got really close to this girl, Peikumo, that I never thought in the eternity of ever would happen. Like it's so surprising. I don't understand how that came about. But then there's this girl who doesn't really have any friends 'cos she's such a bitch and tags along so me and Peiks can't really have any convos.

Urm, this good friend of mine turned into a total slut and even did shit to her own bestie. And is turned into a total bitch. And my life is now only on the internet. Yup, that's it.